4 Mother Thinks We are Lost
“It was a mistake to bring you and Jake here, I think,” she said.
“Jake has chosen the sea. He is already lost. I chose the beach and was lost a long
time ago. I’ll never see the city again.”
Of course, she’d also given up on the beach already, despite living
three or four blocks from it – a deep and holy state of being lost if I ever saw one.
“You’re turning your back on us,” she continued, “and heading for
the forest, but believe me, my darling, the forest will never call you like the sea.
You’ll step into streams and ponds and even rivers, but the only thing you’ll be
thinking about is how all that water is running away from you, away from the forest,
running just as fast as it can to reach the sea – without you.”
And yet, here you are, Jake, escaped from the sea and far inland.
You still monitor the ship-to-ship frequencies, only the ships are empty hulks
drifting the streets of Northangle. She’s probably right about you being lost,
but it’s an ocean of sad, land-locked, lonely souls you’re sailing.
And here am I, having stepped in lots of rocky streams in the
Berkshires and never having given much thought to where the water was going. I had
my own business to attend to. And rivers hereabouts flow south to the sea. My course
takes me north. Even if I strike the St. Lawrence, or Hudson Bay, or Back’s Fish River,
it won’t be the northern seas I’ll be trying to reach. It’ll be drink, and smoke, and
talk – in particular any word of a hound, a bay horse, and a turtledove – and a
road out of town.
1 A Contract
2 Edges
3 The City of Necessity
4 Mother Thinks We are Lost
5 The Waves
6 The City of Dreams
7 Advice
8 Ratiocination
9 Turned Aside by Soft Words
10 Masterpiece
11 Janey Introduced
12 Disappearing
13 What a Librarian Doesn’t Do
14 Lost With All Hands
15 Janey’s House
16 I Go to Pieces in the Universe
17 The New Astrology
18 Places to Lie Down
19 Crazy People
20 Janey’s Decision
21 Fortune
22 Hiding
23 The Empty House
24 Kim Peck’s Sail Plan
25 A Message
26 A Contract Revised
2 Edges
3 The City of Necessity
4 Mother Thinks We are Lost
5 The Waves
6 The City of Dreams
7 Advice
8 Ratiocination
9 Turned Aside by Soft Words
10 Masterpiece
11 Janey Introduced
12 Disappearing
13 What a Librarian Doesn’t Do
14 Lost With All Hands
15 Janey’s House
16 I Go to Pieces in the Universe
17 The New Astrology
18 Places to Lie Down
19 Crazy People
20 Janey’s Decision
21 Fortune
22 Hiding
23 The Empty House
24 Kim Peck’s Sail Plan
25 A Message
26 A Contract Revised
